Shani Sade Sati-Observations

I was curious to know why all of a sudden my life is in turmoil. I was happily working my way up in life and finally things were in place. Out of no where I lost my job, I have been jobless for six months, trying to freelance but that is also not turning out very well. I have been struggling to find a decent job and due to some silly reasons I am not being hired. I started to get surprised when I was not hired even after final salary discussions and verbal commitment, either due to some HR issues or lack of people coordination. This was not my making at all. I have been trying to do everything in my capacity and when things start looking better something out of the blue comes across to spoil it. I started to wonder and get curious about the whole issue. I hardly believe in astrology, I read the daily horoscope once in a while but I am not a follower or believer.

I was looking for reasons to relate to my problems. Why I was facing so many issues all of a sudden? Then I just randomly typed in my Sun sign and there it was. Saturn Sade Sati-or Shani Sade Sati in hindi. Apparently Saturn is in my sun sign and my moon sign. I read heaps and loads about the whole concept. According to Indian Astrology, Sade Sati occurs when Saturn or Shani enters your sun sign, moon sign and the sign before your moon sign and stays there for seven and a half years (not really understood the concept though). Hence the name Sade Sati, in each sign it stays for around 2 and a half years. As of now it is in its setting phase for Virgos and it will end in November 2014 for them. After reading through various web pages about Sade Sati and its influence; my inference is that Sade Sati is widely considered to be the worst time of anybody's life. Its effects are considered to be highly damaging. It is observed that Saturn acts as a harsh teacher for those signs and teaches them life's true lessons. I read many blog comments and personal experience of people under Sade Sati and I found that effects of Saturn are mostly seen in form of 

a) Loss of job

b) Financial Loss

c) Personal Loss-in form of death or separation of a close member of family or friend.

d) Humiliation -Public or mental

e) Depression and mental weakness due to the above issues.

I have experienced almost all of it and after reading the personal experience of many people I could make out that all of them under the negative influence of Shani are facing the same issues. Of course like everybody else I blamed Saturn for my problems. Blame game is very natural during such times. But to look at the brighter side of it while Sade Sati can be a pure curse for some of us for many its a boon too. It is during the initial phase of its influence one can infer whether one is experiencing a negative impact or a positive one. Saturn like I said is like a teacher for those who are experiencing harsher times. There is hardly anything one can do about the whole issue. There are remedies like reading Hanuman Chalisa, chanting Shiva mantras or wearing an iron ring and so on. But we are forgetting one basic thing; Sade Sati if it wants to teach us a lesson then it means we have to learn something out of it. Avoiding and seeking remedies will only be wastage of your time and money.

Those people who are already thinking of committing suicide or are in a state of depression I would just say you are losing at life's game. This is the time when your will and spirit is tested. This is not a moral lecture, this is a realization. I can cry about my situation and seek remedies for it online or even visit an astrologer everyday. None of it is going to solve my situation. I have lost my dear ones, I have experienced failed relationship, I have lost my job and my reputation and also I am financially unstable at the moment. But there is only one thing I can do about it I can work harder and find better opportunities. I try to do almost everything in my capacity to find a decent opening. In my free time I write blogs and try to improve my skill set. I have realized one thing with knowledge comes confidence, you believe in yourself. You understand what you are worthy of and what you can get, waiting for a month or a year then does not make any difference.

For those of who still looking for an answer for their life's problems and those like me dejected by the harsh judgment of the planets and the stars-there is only one thing I can say-believe in yourself, be god loving not god fearing and most importantly Sade Sati could be the best time of your life; when you look back you might thank it someday. Most importantly do not forget when Shani Sade Sati ends it gives you a reward and then time being the biggest healer you will be yourself again. 

Share your experiences with me here; alternatively you can also mail me @ sjwantstoblog@gmail.com.

Tryst With Destiny-To Be Continued

It seems my goal of achieving even the minuscule of happiness has become a distant dream. The more I motivate myself the farther my goals and ambitions go. I have simply failed to understand the underlying techniques of nature. Is it my destiny? Am I destined to struggle? Is it the fact that I am destined to be an average and the more I seek to rise above that it becomes out of my league. It did not start here and from the course of its recurrence in my life I am pretty sure that it will not end here.

Since my childhood and school days I have seen destiny playing games with me. Whenever I tried to unshackle myself out of this barbed loop I was firmly put back into my place. I remember struggling to find a place in playground, my class and then tuition. It just never left my side. I was an average in everything I did. The moment I tried to come out of it and achieve something for myself I was razed out. The glory of the day always belonged to someone else. From classes to grades to college to good education and finally love and career- I never chose what I have today. My choice was never a preference. When I look back today my whole life has been a big compromise. Compromise with courses I took, college I attended, the kind of guys I dated and finally the career path I chose. For an "average" you are not allowed to choose rather you are supposed to take whatever you have been given. I sound like a defeatist here. I definitely feel like one right now; but trust me there was never a time when I did not try to break out of this merry-go-round. I did many times, I always failed to come out victorious.

There is a saying in Hindi which goes something like this "Kismat se zyada aur samay se pehle kisi ko kuch nahi milta", which in English means "You do not get anything beyond your time and destiny". Simply put it suggests that you  will get what you are destined for when your time comes. I always found this quote very negative. Firstly, it limited me to my destiny. No matter how much I struggle for something if it is not destined to me I will not get it. Secondly, there is a time frame set to it. So even if I try I would still not get it because it is simply not my time. My Ex- who is doing pretty good in life, he used to tell me this. I always got into an argument with him over this. But now it seems I have come to accept it. There is a certain destiny which has decided my fate and I am simply a pawn at its hand. I am a helpless, powerless average human bound by the shackles of destiny and time.

There are so many things bad times make you realize. They make you believe in astrology and they make you believe that you can never have faith in yourself. No matter how much I try to motivate myself for the next day it puts me back into my place and tells me "here it is, I am giving you this, stay happy with it". Sadly, this is what I have been doing all my life. I wish I could tell my destiny to just relax and let me take over instead. I would have told her/him (if only it had a gender) to let me be. I would have told her to let me explore my possibilities and my abilities. If I could just have things the way I actually wanted them to be I don't think I would have been even writing this blog. I know hardly anyone reads my blog but this is the only place I can come to for solace. Everywhere else for me at present is pretty depressing and glum.

I still wait for the sun to shine on me, I still hope that everything will be all right. I wish I see the days when I can sit somewhere comfortably, with my dog by my side, a clear blue sea in sight and laptop in hand writing about the happier times in my life.